Let's do this

OKAY, so, pretty much a lot happened lately. First, my parents went to Turkey => me and my brother is home alone pretty much all week. Second, Gustav started High School last Monday, which means that he was engaged in something called "nollning", that's when you play humiliating games (with sexual undertones and the seniors give the poor sixteen-year-olds tons of homemade wine. Totally illegal. And yet, I thought it would be okay to let Gus go on these events. I trusted him and I thought he was strong enough to resist the huge peer pressure and say no to alcohol and stuff. But yeah, last Friday I came home from my class' nollning at 10 PM, tired to death. And Gus wasn't home. And he didn't answer the phone. Yayaya I thought and watched the TV for two hours, alternately sleeping. By 12 o'clock the phone rang. I answered. It was the freaking HOSPITAL! Yes, Gus had had a huge amount of too much wine and was really hypothermic. Thank God someone rushed him to the hospital! I started crying, mostly out of shock and anger (yeah, I'm one of those who cry when they get freaking mad). And I screamed after I laid back the phone. I was FUCKING MAD. Yayyaa, my neighbor had to go to the hospital and stay the night there and stuff. Enough said. When my parents came home they didn't even freak. I'm so pissed, and they're like:"It's OK, Gus, it happens to everyone." And I'm like :" Dude, I've written down a whole list with punishments for you!".

GAAH. They didn't even cut him off his allowance. GAY.

Yayaa, school's been a pain in the ass now, since I'm known as the one with the brother who went to the hospital because he can't handle alcohol and since I have a presentation of a dumb painting tomorrow and it's gonna turn out pretty "I'm a little perfect school girl". Not even the teachers like that stuff.

And my foot still hurts.

Thumbs up for my new iPhone though (3gs but whatever, it was cheap.)

P.S. Listen to Bon Iver's Minnesota, WI !! SO AWESOME, MY TYPE OF SONG! Like pretty soothing while still sometimes really ripping it sometimes+ some really admirable vocals.

First real day of school and a few miseries

This was the first real day of school. I noticed. I woke up when my friend Ebba rang on my doorbell to accompany me on the bus to school. I literally just threw on some random clothes, grabbed my bag and went out the door. Without brushing my teeth, eating breakfast, putting on makeup and etc. I even missed using my nose spray (I still have this annoying cold), which resulted in some respiration problems during class today. School was hard. Recieved two new assignments. Not fun. However, I have to consider that this is the last year, and I have to give it all. It's my future that I'm working for. And it is going to be so worth it.

After school I went with Rebecca to shop an iPhone case, cause I've bought one. The 3gs one. Kinda old but it fit my budget and it was a really good deal. After that we checked on some clothes. I didn't buy anything because I really am not in a shopping mode right now. I don't know what to buy, and I'm in a desperate need of clothes! And I need to work out. Big time. While I've been sick I've felt that I've become chubbier. That's because I haven't been active neither been especially healthy. I've eaten too much sugar :(.

Yayaya. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to make the best out of it. :)

I love Wild Child

I just saw Wild Child on the TV. It's the second time I've seen it. I really like it. It's kind of dorky, but It's just a feel good-movie. And every time Freddy, aka Alex Pettyfer appears I just melt. HOW CUTE?! I'm really a sucker for shaggy blond men haha. Even if I might appreciate some dark haired mysterious men also, such as Rob Pattinson, my future husband. However, Alex Pettyfer is only 4 years older than me! That's nothing, right? While Rob has eight years on me. Hmm. British guys, what a charm. One can really dream, eh?

Btw. My foot's injured, my cold is starting to give up, I burnt a piece of my finger on the oven earlier, I made an Indian mince meat stew today that smelled wonderfully, I baked some sweet potato in the oven and it turned out to be a real hit according to my brother, my parents are in Turkey and I am now going to watch the second movie of Lord of the Rings. It's okay. I'm not freaking about it like movie nerds do. Especially IMDb.

I hate that school starts on Monday. A little comforting is thus the fact that the autumn semester goes by really quickly. And that there's an autumn holiday in the middle of it. However, I hate that the slightly warm, sunny days are counted. Boo.


G'night fellas.

DAMN IT

I caught a cold. During the last days of my summer holidays. Not that I had anything planned or so, but I really do not need anything more to contribute to my depression. School's starting on Monday, and I just want to get out of this country. I'm done with Swedish teenage culture. I hate it. Not that I was the one that did the stupid stuff. I just get really depressed when being let down by my friends friend. I mean, I have actual expectations on them, but some people are just really selfish or stupid..

And now I can't stay to my workout plan! GAH, I HATE BEING SICK. Guess rest is the only thing that will help me now. Booo.

Never sugar again

Dude. I feel like shit. I ate some mint chocolate chip icecream earlier, made with our veery new ice cream maker (bought it yesterday) and now I have no energy what so ever. I started doing a bodyrock-workout, but I just felt that energy would never last for FIVE rounds of pain in my knees. This is just one of those joint-pain days. Hate them! And, I went to see my doctor today and she told me she didn't know if I had nut allergy or not. GAAAAY. I really crave nuts right now. What the heck. I'm gonna do my pushups now and then I'm gonna go rest. I WILL exercise tomorrow morning, after breakfast, but before lunch, while it is still not hot as hell outside.

We're kings of the night

Hello. Now we're in Linköping again. After having travelled 121 miles in one day, I woke up pretty tired this morning. I've been really crabby all day. Now I'm going to clean up. Later I might go for a jog.

Distress in Oslo

Okay. So when I turned on my computer this afternoon, I clicked my way in on my favorite news-webpage. I saw the words : Explosion in Oslo-several killed. And I was chocked. In OSLO? The nice city in Norway? That civilized city? No way. That's just horrible. And later there was a gunman on an island close to Oslo that killed a few politically active adolescents too! O my God. Where is the world heading? And the starving-catastrophe in Africa? Everything seems to be horrible in the world right now.

Obsessions, thoughts and stuff.

Wow. I haven't written here for quite a while now. Well, we're past mid-summer holidays and we're now day by day stepping towards August and school start. I can't exactly say I'm looking forward to it.

During these sunny but not extremely hot summerdays (We're in northern Sweden, and it never get's especially hot here. We're almost by the North Pole, dude.) I get kind of bored. I don't really haveany projects. I guess I like to have projects going but more often I feel like a non-project kind of girl. So, due to me not filling my time with projects, I get obsessed by things instead. I guess that's not a really admirable quality. I'm feeling like one of these Justin Bieber fans, or Twilight fan (which I am, but not hardcore, cause that's gay* and not independent at all, I admire independent people.) Anyhow. I enjoy obsessing about stuff when I'm bored. My obsessions the last weeks have been: This , This, and food and baking. I'm like not a very active person, so I'm gonna strive for a better physique the coming days, weeks, months, years. I've spent quite a little time in comparison to other summers reading books. I guess I've become more restless during the years. I'm seventeen now. I'm old.

Found this guy on Youtube this evening. I love his voice. Not as raspy as Rob Pattinson but close enough :). And he looks good to, even if he flirts a little to much with the camera and is a little too androgynous for my taste. Whatever, men that sing and play guitar are sexy. Enough said.



I'm thinking of starting with Tumblr. It all seems so relaxed and unpretentious.

*Speaking of gay, I really don't have anything against homosexual persons. I'm just not attracted to them. Anyhow, the word gay has come to mean something different to me; similar to foolish and ridiculous and lame and devious. It's just an overall word I use sometimes when I'm too lazy to come up with a better word.

last friday night

Ok, almost one week since we ended school for summer vacation. I've been to Italy. We had a nice time. Bought some clothes. I didn't like when some yucky italian guy tried to bring me to a bar and buy me coffee: first: I hate coffee, second; he was yucky, third; I wanted to shop, fourth; my mom was downstairs, fifth; I know what he wanted, and it was not coffee... yayayaya. I'm home now. Nice. Been watching desperate housewives all day. Think I'm going for a jog/powerwalk later. I have like no energy anymore! :(

I lay down on the cold ground and I

OK. Ended school today. Heading for summer holidays now. FINALLY! I AM EXHAUSTED. Seriously. I can't even see anything before my eyes standing up from a chair, I'm that tired. Tomorrow me and my madre are going to Italy! FUUN

Ease my mind will you

Böö. Woke up 10:30 AM today. Feels like I'm wasting the whole day away. Been home from London for almost 3 days now. It was awesome! Did some shopping too. In a week I'm in Italy! Looking forward to it, a lot!!! It's really sunny here right now. And warm. Think I'll be going for a jog later. First, some sunbathing I think..

10 days of vacation

OK. Now I'm done with almost all homework. I just have to read the rest of a stupid french book and memorize some things on my chemistry report, and I'm ready for summer holidays. Today I turned in my psychology report. My teacher told me I had the highest grade. And she didn't even read my report! And she probably won't either. Weirrd. Yeahyeah, i'm happy to have som time off. On Monday me and my class are going to London! It's going to be really fun. First, I have to go to Nyköping and visit my grandma. And then I'll go to London. Right now, we're visited by an italian guest, his name is Andrea and he is a teacher at Superlec or something in Paris. He is smart.

tänkte ut en dialog mellan oss och allt

OOOOK. Had a pretty calm schoolday. Ended before ten AM. Went home. Saw Desperate Housewive on the computer. Started on my psychology and now, I've been writing on it forever. I'm soo not gonna be a shrink. Must be horrible. I've downloaded some good music too. Great. I'm going to LONDON on Monday! And I don't have any homework this weekend!!!!!!! OMG I'm so happy about that. OK, let's sum up three more chapters of psychology in my essay. Let's do this shit. Only three chapters away from freedom. yup. I'm gonna do this for about half an hour. I'm gonna be done by 17:22. YUP. I have to be fast. As hell.

Now with our souls misunderstood

OOOKKKK. Had my physics test today. It feels okay. Later I cut my hair. It's fiiine now, but,,, it's got a lot of volume. The hairdresser put a lot of dust it in it. Not really used to my head looking like a ball.

Unfortunately, I have more homework to do. JEeez. Bought a tanktop today. It's ok. LONDON ON MONDAY!!!!

For how long

Gaah. I had my englishpresentation today. Went fine, but still not great.

I'm going crazy on the volcano! We might not be able to go to London.. GAAAAAAH! Today I fixed an appointment to the haircutter. Which I will have tomorrow, after my huge physics test. That I should be studying to right now. OK. LET'S JUST DO THIS SHIT.

http://youtu.be/isAJ-CHBePk

kill me

FuQQQQQ, I have sooo mucccch hooooooooooomeeeeeeewoooooork it is iiiiiiinsssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaneeeee. I just wanna go to London, now. I have a huge test in physics and a presentation tomorrow, wich i prepared today, and 2 assignments to turn in this week. K.I.L.L M.E. I'm especially gonna die on the physics test. I suck at physics. Wish I had my dad's talent. I'm gonna fool myself and think that I also have that talent, at least for a couple of days. Yup.

stable

Aa. My armpit is more stable now.. Thank god. I'm in such a mood for Stephanie Plum right now! I just love her. She's my number one role model, i think. She's really, really, cool!

Gay

Waxed my armpits today. Kind of sore. And failure, all the hair didn't get away. The rip itself wasn't bad at all, but the burn afterwards.. gaa.

Cravings: A sexy mama body and legs, a life in NY and a boyfriend, and not having to take the physics test on wednesday, and going to London! :D

Song from a Room

Yäyä.. I begin school late today, but, still I woke up pretty early to finish my homework, and still I don't do it. I just sit by the computer and look at blogs and listen to music. Nice pause in my hectic daily life. Less than two weeks until London now! OMG.

stuff

The ideal of beauty, is insane. And the things people do to reach this, is even more insane. I am never ever going to stop eating carbs. They're my life. I'm normal. I eat normally. I exercise normally. And I'm smart.

snälla bli min igen

Hello, hello.
So effing busy this weekend. Studying as usual. Not that fun. Looking forward to visiting London with my class. I would like to go to Santa Barbara this summer too, but the flight tickets seem to be slightly to expensive. Bummer.

katherine kiss me

YO. So ashamed. I'm such a coward. Had an Italian test today. It went just fine I think! After school I went for a nice walk with my friend Ebba. Now; I have been indulging in unhealthy things. Coming up; performing situps and dips. Working on my exercise-schedule. I feel stronger already!

no more stalking

My dad partly ruined my life today! Really feeling like an asshole. AAa. I need psychotherapy.

one bourbon one scotch one beer

Had a chemistry test today. Don't know how it went though. It's like 25 degrees (Celsius) here! I'm dying! Right now I should spend some time with my french book. Guess I'll have to get my ass downstairs soon.

victim

Been sitting outside all day studying italian and french and chemistry. My arms are soo red now. And I actually used sun factor (20). I should use the one marked with 50, I have like no pigment. I get freckles, but I actually like them in contrary to others. Anyhow, I feel like a victim. Being allergic and having no pigment and being short.

Gosh

Summer in Sweden! This week I've started on my one hundred pushups program and I already feel stronger! And more goodlooking too, haha.

I've stayed off as much sugar as I could this week and I feel great, but today is my sugarday so I can eat candy and icecream! YUUUM. Unfortunately, this day is also a studyday. I have a tonne of homework and tests to study for.. But, I, my cropped top and short shorts are going to hang out in the sun with the chemistry book. Guess it's OK.

C'è estate! Arrividerci!

Det här är värt att dö för

Shit, thursday! Friday tomorrow! SOOOO HAPPY THE WEEKEND'S ALMOST HERE! And, it's getting warmer too. Glad bout that. Had a very interesting discussion about milk and bananas and stuff at lunch today. Elin's such a besserwisser! Towmorrow we're having national tests in English. Hope that's it's going to be fine.

Gick i ditt kvarter tills det blev för kallt

It's white outside. Not happy about it SNOWING AS HELL in MAY! But, in the weekend we're gonna be having summer temperatures, so I guess it's ok. Oh, and I'm going to Italy, Bergamo outside of Milan the day after I end school. Happy? YES!

Pushups?

I plan on getting fit this summer, and excellent contribution to this are the websites http://www.hundredpushups.com/, http://www.twohundredsitups.com/, http://www.onefiftydips.com/ etc... I'm sooo gonna be hardcore! YEAH. While I'm improving my strength I will also be improving my cardio-condition. I'll be trying to reach my previous, but not reached, goal of running 7.5 kilometres.

o mare nero mare nero

Looks like I'm going to Italy this summer! Awesome.

jag är så hög, jag kunde dö

Tjo. Läxdag. Kollar upp budgetresa till Bergamo.

återfall

ojdå, ylva gav mig en skumdelfin nyss, fan. Men detta är den sista!!!!!

Lovesick

Alltså. Igår såg jag fram extremt mycket emot denna dag. Dagen då jag skulle åstadkomma saker, vara glad och smart. Ha kul med kompisarna. Men, den började ganska illa. Lade märke till en antydan till dubbelhaka under hakan (såklart). Jajajja, dags att sluta med godiset. For eveeeeer. Har ett påskägg i garderoben som jag på sistone gått och nallat lite ur då och då. NO MORE. Tänker inte ha dubbelhaka. Får jag det, då plastikopererar jag. Nepp, nu är det hälsahälsa som gäller. Pas de sucre. Sedan, när jag åkte buss sa jag till Ebba när rökning kom på tal; "Drömde att revolten rökte...hahaha!". OCH DÅ SÄGER HON : " Men det gör han ju! Godmorgon, är du efter eller?!" CHOCKCHOCKCHOOCK! Förstörde min dag. Herregud, det trodde jag verkligen inte. Kan väl antyda att mina drömmar varslade mig. Rejält. Sen var jag apseg på fysiken. SÅ. JÄVLA.TRÖG. Efter skolan var jag tvungen att ventilera rejält med H och R. Stackarna.

Enda positiva är att jag fick MVG på min Eng-uppsats :))

stuck between the burning light and the dusty shade

Ni kanske inte vet att mitt hjärta bultar lite extra mycket för Robert Pattinson? Det gör det. Och jag har ännu inte sett Water For Elephants. Min Rob-hype var störst i 9an, och har på sistone avtagit en del. Men han är fortfarande viktig för mig. Och när jag lyssnar på den här låten påminns jag om när jag gick i nian, på våren när jag inte riktigt visste vem jag var eller vad jag ville. Nu kan jag förlika mig lite mer med denna låt. I'm in a good place now, hur klyschigt det än låter. 

Påskdagen

Ojoj, drömde att jag bytte kläder med Revolten... Haha. Jag var på ena sidan övergångsstället, men mina lila skor var på andra sidan där Revolten stod och jag ropade att han skulle vakta dem åt mig! Men då satte han på sig dem... Så då tog jag och satte på mig hans gröna byxor och gröna converse. Undrar vad detta innebär egentligen. Skall försöka drömtyda lite i eftermiddag tror jag.

Idag skall jag njuta av det underbara vädret, såklart. Det har varit fint väder hela lovet! Fan vad jag INTE ångrar att jag inte åkte till Kalix som några av mina andra familjemedlemmar.. HÖHÖHÖ. Har bara suttit ute på altanen hela dagarna och latat mig. Knappt gjort en enda läxa. Ska försöka ta tag i det idag, lite i alla fall.

Long Friday

Idag är det långfredag. Var det inte denna dag som Jesus dog? Ganska tråkigt, om man är religiös vill säga. Jag är inte särskilt religiös och det enda jag har förtärt än så länge som har anknytningar till påsken är godis och påskmust. Det bästa av det bästa! Började dagen med en lång promenad med mor min i solen och fortsatte den med lite Real Housewives of New York och sen lite mat och läsning i solen. 20 grader är det här och det är ju så trevligt så! Senare ska vi gå på bio, The King's Speech. Ser ut att bli en bra långfredag för mig.

frenching is no good here

Yup. Har ännu en slö påsklovsdag idag, på skärtorsdag och allt. Har liksom ingen längtan efter att göra något. Bara att se Desperate Housewives. Jag har ätit en extra god sallad med rucola, mangold, avocado blalblabla. Jag gillar avocado, hur kan man INTE göra det? Jaja. Har en liten desire; lång smal snygg och snygga kläder. Lär inte hända inom kort. Kollar på ett Oprah-avsnitt om dissociativ personlighetsstörning. Vilket är intressant och påminner mig om att jag måste göra klart min del av psykologiredovisningen snart.

I ain't got no one I can depend on

När jag gick i tvåan och bodde i USA såg jag Vitamin C på The Amanda Bynes Show, och hon var ju riktigt cool. Me, Myself and I var ju fetaostbra liksom! Minns även att jag och min klass sjöng Graduation Song på avslutningen i nian. Kände mig ganska så asful och dålig. Det är en dålig låt. Me Myself and I är däremot bättre. 

Coachella

Skulle väldigt gärna ha varit på Coachella. Verkar ha varit roligt som sjutton!

Saker att göra innan man dör:

• Vara på Coachella
• Blåsa glas

soft shock